So I am very stubborn and will not admit to being baby hungry......because I'm not! ;) LOL
For some reason Heavenly Father has not let me forget what it was like being nauseous, sleep deprived, swollen, uncomfortable, and even worse.... the delivery. All I have to do is think back to it and I can almost feel it all over again! Sad huh? Aren't we supposed to forget all that stuff so we want to have more? I remember forgetting all of it before getting pregnant with Nathan and then it all came back to me weeks before his birth. =) If I had not been so uncomfortable and unable to even sleep, I would have begged to just keep him in =) LOL .....okay, okay, it wasn't THAT bad =) LOL The sleep part yes, but the rest...no, not that bad ;). So why in the world am I looking at the boys' baby pictures and feeling anxious for the day when I can hold my next one in my arms? I feel like there is a little one just waiting to come to us (I have felt like that for about six months now) and maybe that is why I feel this way even though everything else in me is screaming NO! NOT AGAIN! So, besides the timing being awful for us right now (you know without much of an income and no insurance), and my crazy huge babies that make my labors very eventful ;), and my Midwife retiring, and my babies being horrible sleepers, and me never even coming close to my goal weight........ I still feel this way? Am I nuts???? YES! I believe I am. Maybe I just need to stop looking at baby pictures =) ....and stay away from babies all together..... and pregnant women ;) LOL Or maybe I should just pray that Heavenly Father helps me forget all the bad stuff and just remember the great stuff......yeah, that might work =) LOL =) So, to live up to my stubbornness....I am NOT baby hungry! Really, I'm not ;) I remember it ALL TOO well! =) LOL
For some reason Heavenly Father has not let me forget what it was like being nauseous, sleep deprived, swollen, uncomfortable, and even worse.... the delivery. All I have to do is think back to it and I can almost feel it all over again! Sad huh? Aren't we supposed to forget all that stuff so we want to have more? I remember forgetting all of it before getting pregnant with Nathan and then it all came back to me weeks before his birth. =) If I had not been so uncomfortable and unable to even sleep, I would have begged to just keep him in =) LOL .....okay, okay, it wasn't THAT bad =) LOL The sleep part yes, but the rest...no, not that bad ;). So why in the world am I looking at the boys' baby pictures and feeling anxious for the day when I can hold my next one in my arms? I feel like there is a little one just waiting to come to us (I have felt like that for about six months now) and maybe that is why I feel this way even though everything else in me is screaming NO! NOT AGAIN! So, besides the timing being awful for us right now (you know without much of an income and no insurance), and my crazy huge babies that make my labors very eventful ;), and my Midwife retiring, and my babies being horrible sleepers, and me never even coming close to my goal weight........ I still feel this way? Am I nuts???? YES! I believe I am. Maybe I just need to stop looking at baby pictures =) ....and stay away from babies all together..... and pregnant women ;) LOL Or maybe I should just pray that Heavenly Father helps me forget all the bad stuff and just remember the great stuff......yeah, that might work =) LOL =) So, to live up to my stubbornness....I am NOT baby hungry! Really, I'm not ;) I remember it ALL TOO well! =) LOL
Well, at any rate...... I may not be, but this baby sure is hungry!
I could not resist posting this picture, it made me laugh too hard! =) LOL
4 comments:
Hey... So that's why you'e been avoiding me. He he he no seriously
I know exactly how you feel. I HATE being pregnant! It sucks but yet I keep signing myself up for it knowing how miserable it's going to be. We must really need the blessings that's why we keep having babies =)
okay I can't say much because being pregnant is not that hard for me and the delivery is easy.....because I get an epidural! You are a crazy girl for doing it at home! Epidurals make life so EASY! I took that hipno class you did and I love it but.....holy cow I was not prepared for birth. You are the woman for undertaking such crazy deliveries but...you might have a million kids if you knew how great an epidural was. But I do respect your decision on not having one....crazy girl! :)
Just do it! It will be fun . . . he he. Seriously, if you feel like it is right, the Lord will provide for your family. How's your leg? Are you up and around. I keep meaning to call you, but I am a bum!
Okay...I read the whole post thinking at some point you were going to say you were pregnant...that's okay. When the time is right. ;) It's not right for me and Ison, either.
I love the hungry baby pictures!
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